Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Decisions decisions..

Sometimes life is just HARD.  No way around it.  Beau and I are getting to a point where we have to make quite a few big decisions.  Or maybe I just feel like we have to make these decisions now.  I don't even know.  This is where my over-preparation gets me in trouble.  I like to have a plan, and as I'm learning, sometimes we can only plan ahead so far before life changes our plans. *Sigh* What's a girl to do?  Grad schools? Where to live? Careers? Family?  Hmmm...I'm sure I'm just blowing all this out of proportion, but sometimes I can't help but be overwhelmed with all the decisions that we have coming up.

Beau graduates in a month, and I graduate a year after that.  So in about a year we will be going SOMEWHERE.  Doing SOMETHING.  But WHAT??  No clue.  Well that's not technically true.  I have plenty of clues.  Too many in fact.  Why do all the choices seem to be so good?  How are we supposed to decide? A year seems like a long time, but just judging how everything else in my life has flown by lately, I know another year is going to come and go in no time at all. I think I need to start appreciating things more.  Cliche right?  I know, but it's true.  I'm always looking ahead and trying to figure out what life has coming for us, and sometimes I forget that I have already been extremely blessed in life.

I'm married to a wonderful man who takes care of me and loves me.  I live in one of the most beautiful vacation spots in the world.  I'm receiving a great education and gaining more experience than I ever could have asked for.  And yet...I'm obsessing over "the plan."  What's the plan??  Ahh, crazy girl I am.  The husband often reminds me that I need to focus more on the "now" and be happy with it.  I get extremely frustrated when he tells me this.  Mostly because he is right of course. What a good husband I have.  He keeps me level headed.  For now, I'm grateful for that and won't worry more than necessary about what's to come.  

Life has been wonderful to me.
More wonderful than I sometimes think I deserve.

Thanks for suffering through my babblings today. 


Jenna said... Best Blogger Tips

I am always thinking ahead, too. I have a hard time not planning my life out waay in advance so I can totally relate :)

Windy said... Best Blogger Tips

Just PRAY! Do what the Lord wants you to do.

Sandy a la Mode said... Best Blogger Tips

just found your blog and think it's super cute! good luck on whatever you and your beau decide to do! :)

cailen ascher said... Best Blogger Tips

do what you love. in life & in your careers. and yes, try to live in the moment. it's not always easy, but living in the here and now gives you clarity about the right path to take : )

cute blog - i'm your newest follower!

Ramsey said... Best Blogger Tips

I know how you feel! Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and return to being 5. God is awesome and will provide for your family! Happy wishes!