Sometimes life is just HARD. No way around it. Beau and I are getting to a point where we have to make quite a few big decisions. Or maybe I just feel like we have to make these decisions now. I don't even know. This is where my over-preparation gets me in trouble. I like to have a plan, and as I'm learning, sometimes we can only plan ahead so far before life changes our plans. *Sigh* What's a girl to do? Grad schools? Where to live? Careers? Family? Hmmm...I'm sure I'm just blowing all this out of proportion, but sometimes I can't help but be overwhelmed with all the decisions that we have coming up.
Beau graduates in a month, and I graduate a year after that. So in about a year we will be going SOMEWHERE. Doing SOMETHING. But WHAT?? No clue. Well that's not technically true. I have plenty of clues. Too many in fact. Why do all the choices seem to be so good? How are we supposed to decide? A year seems like a long time, but just judging how everything else in my life has flown by lately, I know another year is going to come and go in no time at all. I think I need to start appreciating things more. Cliche right? I know, but it's true. I'm always looking ahead and trying to figure out what life has coming for us, and sometimes I forget that I have already been extremely blessed in life.
I'm married to a wonderful man who takes care of me and loves me. I live in one of the most beautiful vacation spots in the world. I'm receiving a great education and gaining more experience than I ever could have asked for. And yet...I'm obsessing over "the plan." What's the plan?? Ahh, crazy girl I am. The husband often reminds me that I need to focus more on the "now" and be happy with it. I get extremely frustrated when he tells me this. Mostly because he is right of course. What a good husband I have. He keeps me level headed. For now, I'm grateful for that and won't worry more than necessary about what's to come.
Beau graduates in a month, and I graduate a year after that. So in about a year we will be going SOMEWHERE. Doing SOMETHING. But WHAT?? No clue. Well that's not technically true. I have plenty of clues. Too many in fact. Why do all the choices seem to be so good? How are we supposed to decide? A year seems like a long time, but just judging how everything else in my life has flown by lately, I know another year is going to come and go in no time at all. I think I need to start appreciating things more. Cliche right? I know, but it's true. I'm always looking ahead and trying to figure out what life has coming for us, and sometimes I forget that I have already been extremely blessed in life.
I'm married to a wonderful man who takes care of me and loves me. I live in one of the most beautiful vacation spots in the world. I'm receiving a great education and gaining more experience than I ever could have asked for. And yet...I'm obsessing over "the plan." What's the plan?? Ahh, crazy girl I am. The husband often reminds me that I need to focus more on the "now" and be happy with it. I get extremely frustrated when he tells me this. Mostly because he is right of course. What a good husband I have. He keeps me level headed. For now, I'm grateful for that and won't worry more than necessary about what's to come.
Life has been wonderful to me.
More wonderful than I sometimes think I deserve.
Thanks for suffering through my babblings today.
Thanks for suffering through my babblings today.
5 comments:
I am always thinking ahead, too. I have a hard time not planning my life out waay in advance so I can totally relate :)
Just PRAY! Do what the Lord wants you to do.
just found your blog and think it's super cute! good luck on whatever you and your beau decide to do! :)
do what you love. in life & in your careers. and yes, try to live in the moment. it's not always easy, but living in the here and now gives you clarity about the right path to take : )
cute blog - i'm your newest follower!
cheers,
cailen
www.cailenascher.blogspot.com
I know how you feel! Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and return to being 5. God is awesome and will provide for your family! Happy wishes!
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